Why?

I have always been one to roll with the punches, and never really stop and ask myself, or God, why things happen. Well, until now. There has been so much that has gone on in our community within the last 7 days that it feels like an eternity. I will never understand why a baby or child is killed. I will never understand why cancer exists. I will never understand why bad things happen to good people. I have always said that everything happens for a reason and that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, and that He has a plan for each of us- and that the place where we are is exactly where He wants us. I have been struggling this week, and to be honest, for the past month, with why things happen like they do. I understand that some things happen to "wake" us up before things get too out of control and/or to put us on the right path. It just doesn't seem fair. And, yes, I know that life isn't supposed to be fair. But it still doesn't make it feel any better. It doesn't take the hurt away. And it sure as heck doesn't make things easier. I mean, think about this- how would you tell a family that their small child, whom they have been praying for and who has been fighting, is gone? How can you tell someone that they have cancer and that it's inoperable? How can you tell someone that they only have a certain amount of time left? I know that God's has things under control, but I still have trouble finding a reason for cancer to even exist. Not just cancer, but all deadly illnesses. To be honest and quite frank, it SUCKS. Having had a grandfather and an aunt pass away with cancer, I have seen the struggles that it causes. Having had a friend who was just diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, I have seen the trials she (AND she has a husband and 2 small boys) has gone through. I have watched from near and far as mothers and fathers are trying to find peace with the death of their child. I try not to question God's way, but it's things like this that leave me asking 'Why'?