2013- my propositions

As my previous post suggested, I am a work in progress, and am looking forward to 2013. While the first month has been pretty stressful, emotional, and down right aggravating, I refuse to lose focus on the big picture. But, even more so, I refuse to give up on finding out more about me (and no, not in a "me me me" sense). For the past near decade (YIKES!), I have given my all to things and people, while putting myself on the back burner, and in a sense, have lost sight of me. This was not something I planned, and while I love everything that I do, sometimes I feel that I have been committed to so much that I have lost sight of the important things- my family, friends, etc. Don't get me wrong, those who know me know that I would bend over backwards to help anyone out. But learning to say "No" more isn't a bad thing, or so I've been told. So, I plan to start using it more. I plan to spend more time with Tristan with the TV (iPad, phone, etc) turned off. I plan on making the next few years extremely memorable, and don't want to miss a minute of the excitement that is life. In order to do this, I have realized, that I have to let go of the schedule. While a schedule is a great thing to be on, you don't have to live it. So what if you get your 3 year old in bed at 10 instead of 8:30, or if he wants to have dinner in the bathtub? Who cares if you are late taking him to daycare because he wants to snuggle for a "wittle bit" before he will get up? These are the things and moments that will last a lifetime, not the darn schedule. So, I propose throwing it out the window, setting it on fire, just dump the thing! YOU DON'T NEED IT! Life like you're supposed to- be happy, not stressed. Giving, not walked on. And loved, not taken for granted!!!!! 

Putting my big girl pants on and dealing....

Fifteen days into 2013, and I am so glad to be looking forward to what it has in store. So much has happened in the past month, but I am determined to put it behind me and focus on making my life better, less stressful, and more fulfilling. I refuse to let anyone hold me back from what I want to do. This year, I will be finding my way back to me, and make a more conscience effort to be more time efficient so I'm not spreading myself thin. I have a feeling I am going to learn a lot more about myself this year- good and bad- and I'm ok with that. I know that God has a plan for me and I'm going to have to learn to let go of the reigns at some point...